Will it stop?

It has been months and i just can’t keep you off my mind. It’s so wrong. Frustrating. Awful

I started to read again though. And i keep wanting to tell you what i’m reading and ranting about the book.

I never know how to let go. Never good at it. What if i say i do not want to let go? Will i ever want to let go? Will i let you go at the end? Sometimes i just wanna meet God in person, hug Him, tell Him about everything. Maybe a pat on the head will help. I am tired. I wanna let go but I don’t. Going through September is scary, one year ago, you were with me. Snapchat keeps reminding me memories. Of course I remember, even without those notifications, duh?

Have you ever think about me when you’re with her? Is she treating you well? What’s better in her that you can’t find in me? I am enough, I should be enough. I need a hug. Come back home. Come back, home. I’m ruining myself with this thoughts. I’m destroying my own life. Come back home. Come back, home. Christmas is coming soon. Come back, home.

Damn cringe but I just don’t know where to put this. F me stupid me bodoh me